What happens now, what do i do now that God has told me “no”? The thoughts that rage throughout my mind are endless, yet I know that God has not abandoned me, He has simply told me that His will is greater than my wants! Isaiah prophesied the words of God saying, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8-9).
During this time the enemy has shown its face to me and has, (as he does) to try to tempt me in all forms. Yet one thing i know that is true, is that I didn’t stop breathing, I didn’t quit moving, I haven’t ceased from existing. No quite the contrary I am still here, moving, breathing still present to deal with results of God’s decision. Does it hurt, YES, very much so! Do I understand the why, or the how, or the when? No, as much as i would beg of God to show me His ways, I must take this time to become closer to my God for the reasons are His to make. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Did God tell us to rely on Him, and to depend on Him, that our life is so much more than our wants and our desires? If i rely on God and His will for my life, yet He tells me no, then what am i to do?
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
Does yelling at God make Him listen to me any more than if I speak my heart to God? Does my wants outweighs the things that God has in store for my life? Why cant God get on my program and see that the things I desire are for good and not for selfish pleasure. But then again i am reminded that though the very things i deem unselfish, and the things that i deem “good” are just that, my interpretation of what the standard of good and bad are. To what do i make this comparison to or of? The very things that my eyes see not the things that my God shows me. The world has offered to me its lens for my entire life and for the most part i have used that very lens to make a lot of decisions. Why do I have to come to these realities before i see with the lens that God has offered me my entire life. It is rebellion and nothing more. Psalms 78:8 “And not be like their fathers, A stubborn and rebellious generation, A generation that did not prepare its heart And whose Spirit was not faithful to God.” The stubborn human nature in me is always at work challenging what God has and is doing in my life. I must remember that God is working a great work inside me and its hard to see the forest from the trees at times. James 1:1-4 If i am to be perfect in the ways that God has in store for me then i need to understand that its going to take work, and endurance. No marathon runner begins his or her training by ripping open a box of Twinkies and watching a marathon of their favorite reality t.v. show. Rather they do things that they don’t necessary want to, such as difficult things that make them better, things that ready them for the difficult task ahead. The one where its victory is far greater than anything this world could ever offer. This is what i need as a constant reminder in my life rather than forming a self pity party and indulgence in life’s temporary gratifications.
At least that sounds easy huh….. James 1:12